목요일, 8월 28, 2008
Feel weird thinking about the impending change looming ahead..
Was it because i had to say goodbye once too many?
First it was kiwon오빠.. then it was eunjun.
Later it was mihee.
Yesterday it was to taewan and sijin.
And still i have to say it to kyochan and kyohyun..
and probably to jessica, minky and koh eun too on sat.
It just doesnt feel right that i cant have them with me for a longer period of time just when we were getting close. At least i know that it will be the same when i come back to my local friends but its another thing altogether for korean friends since ultimately they will be going back someday.
I just loathe the feeling that builds up in me thinking about losing contact with them. IT sux.
Yesterday was my last lesson with taewan and sijin and they had to put taewan in another class. Sigh. I should have asked if i could take him too. But oh well. The kid saved his hp no in my phone under 'handsome' while he was waiting for me to end class with sijin. Lol. They are both good kids but i prefer taewan cos sijin always has clashes with me. Sometimes i even get the feeling that to him, i have the potential to be a good friend but not a good teacher. For someone who had even been to israel and god-knows what other exotic places in the world, i think he needs a teacher who is much more knowledgeable than me.
Ya i admit i know little of the world out there.. i cant really be bothered.
I am a tadpole in a tupperware; to quote my 'dear' english teacher in secondary school. Ha.
Oh i forgot to mention.
I havent even yet begun my farewells to my local friends. Since im at it, might as well mention who are the peeps im gonna miss.
Lets see: Juline, kaywee, piggy zw, piggy ry, angie, jn, hy, xj, chris, kt, yunling..
So not that many actually. Lol. Which is considered good since i have enough of saying goodbyes over n over again anyway.
지금 이 느낌 아무말로 기술할 수 없네.
나 왜그래?
기뻐하게 될 수 있을텐데..
갑자기 이렇게
정신 어디 갔어?
눈물도 흘릴 뻔했다.
금요일, 8월 22, 2008
지쳐질텐데.. 아닌가?
세상에서 경험해야 하는 일은 밤하늘에 늘 반짝이고 있는 별들처럼 많구나..
나 행복해지고 싶거든.. 그런데 어떻게 하면 행복해질 수 있을까 항상 생각해도 이 문제 아직도 못 풀었다. 갈수록 대산이라는 말 혹시 현실인가? 말도 안 되..
아~ 짜증나.
이젠 나한테 이꿈밖에 없어서 더 소중하게 간주해야겠다..
더 멋있는 미래를 위해서..
The days seem to be passing by without me noticing it..
Dun really feel like blogging recently. Everything's almost coming to an end soon. My days at Readingtown, visa application, airtix, luggage preparation, tesol assignments, korean tuition..
Told 2 regulars in my wed class that im rather close with about my impending trip. Think im gonna miss sijin and taewan. Lol. Especially when they are caught up asking me questions about my cooking abilities and my height.
Ha ehh to quote them,
'You are hokkien, so do you know how to cook hokkien mee?'
'Can you cook? No right.. only instant noodles?'
'Then can you cook laksa?' (i named laksa in response to a previous question about whats the nicest food in sg)
'Why are you so small?'
'Stand up... but i shall sit down.' (I thought taewan wanted to compare his height to mine, but apparently he wanted to do that while sitting down.. ha eh insult sia)
Heh there were more funny snippets which ended up in them not being able to finish all their work and they could still tell me they were enjoying class! Slackers~~ They are really amusing. I aint exaggerating when i say that its these kind of students that invoke the urge in me to teach middle school kids in korea. XD.
Oh anyway both of them mentioned that they might be going back to korea in december and treat me to kimbap. I shall wait in eager anticipation. Ha. I conclude that 15 years old bois trying to challenge your authority can be rather amusing at times. Oh i missed out a super funny line that taewan said.
'I love you teacher~!' -____-""
ROFL. All because he wanted to have the class work as homework instead so that he can leave early to go home and catch his [태양의 여자]. Of cos, it DIDNT work. Lol.
Hmm on a sadder sidenote,
Rest in peace. Lee Eon.
Fondly remembered forever as the silly Min Yub in one of the shows that I love the most..
Credits from: popseoul.com
사람의 목숨을 이렇게 쉽게 잃는 게 무섭다. 아무리 짧아도 어떻게 사는지 인생에서 뭐 경험하는지 제일 중요하니까 지금 꼭 잘 살아야하겠지. 귀할 텐데.. 근데 왜 어떤 사람들이 바보같이 생명이 아무것도 아니라고 생각한다? 나 도저히 이해가 안 되겠네..
하긴 자기도 사랑하지 않은놈한테 이런 생각 많이 하는데 놀랄 필요가 없어도 되.
토요일, 8월 09, 2008
Heh just dropped over at my piggy ry's blog reading about our stayover and decided to just kope one picture.
My kid at Readingtown chanced upon this picture in my handphone the other day and she quipped excitedly, 'So your friend and you are still in school?' Lol. I take it as a compliment that we look younger than our actual age. Ha though i bet she has no inkling of what the big fat NJC logo stands for.
Piggy zw!! I must see you before i leave~~ @__@
Hmm anticipating a long break ahead cos my request for a 3-day week instead of the original 5-day week has been approved. Hee. Since today is National Day i.e. no work on Saturday, means i will be resting all the way till Wednesday. Yippee~! Besides the JB trip in the afternoon later and shopping with juline on tuesday since she took a day off, i should be at home most of the time when i dun have to go out for tuition. Honestly speaking, i kinda dread having to drag myself out for tuition nowadays.. but oh well i need the $. Argh.
생각하면 생각할수록 나의 삶 나 책임을 져야지.
아. 졸려.
화요일, 8월 05, 2008
Received a strange call when i was in the cab just now.
'Moshi moshi~ Watashi wa namae wa weebee desu.' (Hi, my name is weebee.)
Lol. Frankly i was confused over the identity of the caller at first though there was a nagging thought that the voice and the tone of the caller was rather familiar. So we went on for a few minutes, me trying to get him to identify himself; him trying to beat around the bush.
Until i heard the word 笨蛋.
And then i spent the next few seconds, STUNNED as it became evident who it was.
I really mean stunned cos i was at a total loss of words. Heh it was simply beyond my wildest dreams that a person who has left would come back suddenly.
Yeah kiwon오빠 is back in singapore for this week for a bosch workshop~! ^^ He had actually sent me an email prior to his arrival yesterday night but cos i was over at piggy ry's house i didnt have the chance to read it. But i am kinda glad i didnt. Ha. I like surprises. Especially pleasant ones. Hee.
Anyway im totally bushed after spending a nite with my piggy ry. Gonna concuss any moment now cos we hit the sack only at a record-breaking (for me) 5am in the morning and waking up 4.5 hours after that. I deem it as gong yoo's fault! Haa. Yup we skimmed through 11 episodes of [Coffee Prince] for all those lovey-dovey scenes. They were just too good to be missed. Lol.
And we still managed 2 hours of squash (ok, coupled with alot of breaks in between). I lurve the sport. Heh piggy ry must have more squash sessions with me~
Anyway, Mr choi treated all the teachers to a korean lunch again on monday. Almost full attendance and everyone left with full stomachs, or rather bulging tummies. Lol. I swear i already have enough of korean fare before i leave for the country itself. Oh i mention this because i seem to be having a lot of korean food recently, not just with courtesy of mr choi, but also kyochan's mum.
Finally went back for my tuition with the bois after 2 months' hiatus and i really missed them~
Ok i cant take it any longer.
Shall continue to blog tomorrow.
In any case, im glad he's back, albeit for a short while~ XD
금요일, 8월 01, 2008
Been hitting the replay button over and over again since the first time i heard it yesterday.
The lyrics are equally beautiful.
どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう
Why did I end up falling for you?
どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう
どんなに時が流れても君はずっとここにいると思ってたのに
でも君が選んだのは違う道
Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi
Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed
I still thought you were right here
But you've already chosen a different path
どうして君に何も伝えられなかったんだろう
毎日毎晩募ってく思い
あふれ出す言葉
わかってたのに
もう届かない
Doushite kimi ni nani mo tsutaerarenakattan darou
Mainichi maiban tsunotteku omoi
Afuredasu kotoba
Wakatteta noni
Mou todokanai
Why couldn't I call out to you at all?
Every day and night growing emotions
And words overflow
But I realized that
They'd never reach you again
はじめて出会ったその日から
君を知っていた気がしたんだ
あまりに自然に溶け込んでしまった二人
Hajimete deatta sono hi kara
Kimi wo shitteita ki ga shittanda
Amari ni shizen ni tokekonde shimatta futari
Since that day I first met you
I felt like I already knew you
You and I melded into each other so smoothly
どこに行く乗りも一緒で君がいることが当然で
僕らは二人で大人になってきた
でも君が選んだのは違う道
Doko ni iku nori mo issho de kimi ga iru koto ga touzen de
Bokura wa futari de otonaninatte kita
Demo kimi ga eranda no wa chigau michi
It was natural for me to be where you were
The two of us grew up together
But you've already chosen a different path
どうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう
どんなに時が流れても君はずっと
ここにいると思ってたのに
もう帰れない
Doushite kimi wo suki ni natte shimattan darou
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto
Koko ni iru to omotteta noni
Mou kaerenai
Why did I end up falling for you?
No matter how much time has passed
I still thought you were right here
Now we can't turn back
特別な意味を持つ今日を
幸せ顔で立つ今日を
きれいな姿で神様に願ってる君を
Tokubetsuna imi wo motsu kyou wo
Shiawase kao de tatsu kyou wo
Kireina sugata de kami sama ni negatteru kimi wo
The special meaning held by this day
Today you stood with a happy expression
You looked beautiful while praying to god
僕じゃない人の隣で
祝福されてる姿を
僕はどうやって見送ればいいのだろう
Boku janai hito no tonari de
Shukufukusareteru sugata wo
Boku wa douyatte miokureba ii no darou
But I wasn't the one next to you
And the image of you receiving blessings
Of that how could I let go?
もうどうして君を好きになってしまったんだろう
あの頃の僕らのこと
もう戻れない（考えた考えた）
Mou doushite kimi ga suki ni natte shimattan darou
Ano koro no bokura no koto
Mou modorenai (kangaeta kangaeta)
Why did I end up falling for you?
How we were before
We can't return to it anymore (I've thought it through, thought it through)
どうして君の手をつかみ奪えなかったんだろう
どんなに時が流れても君はずっと
僕の横にいるはずだった（そのままに）
Doushite kimi no te wo tsukami ubaenakattan darou
Donna ni toki ga nagarete mo kimi wa zutto
Boku no yoko ni iru hazu datta (sono mama ni)
Why didn't I hold on to your hand?
No matter how much time has passed
You should've always been by my side (never changing)
それでも君が僕のそば離れていても
永遠に君が幸せでいること
ただ願ってる
たとえそれがどんなに寂しくても（寂しくても）
Soredemo kimi ga boku no soba hanareteite mo
Eien ni kimi ga shiawase de iru koto
Tada negatteru
Tatoe sore ga donna ni sabishikute mo (sabishikute mo)
But still, even if I'm nowhere near you anymore
I'm praying that you
May be happy for eternity
No matter how much that would make me lonely (no matter how lonely)
Credits to: shintalita@multiply
There's simpy no way the bois cant get 1st on the Oricon chart with this. NO way.
I lurve lurve lurve jae's opening note and min's high notes. If only they had a korean version of this.. For peeps who are unmoved by the difficulty level of the song, try singing along to the romanji lyrics. I reckon the bois must have at least rehearsed it over a million times prior to the live. Lol.
어제 하루종일 정신 없이 하던 나
오늘부터 좋아질 거죠
아무리 지쳐도 시간이 누구든지를 위해 기다리지 않아서
계속 걸어야지
전 잊어버리는 거 못 해
안 하더라구요
마음속에 기억으로 놓을게
두고 나서 다시 간다
내생 인형 되고 싶다
아무 느낌이나 없는 인형